Iced

How to circumnavigateunexpected glaciers? I am unnervedthoughts spirallingchasing faults Have I been remiss?Replay the scenerewrite the scripttill comprehension dawns What lies beneath frozen surfaceis self-inflicted sorrow:covetous desire aching (Image my own)

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Let’s Not!

Let’s chat! Seldom an invitationto friendly repartee Voices will risefoment latent resentment Where’s the purpose in that? I already bear the marksof vile contempt, soul-etchedin permanent ink. Let’s chat?I’d rather not. (Image my own.)

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Hand Holding

Found my first love holding hands walking home from school – grade one. Father’s grip crushed, controlled, warned against disobedience, held on until compliance was assured. My sister’s hand – frail flesh stretched over aching bones – clung to mine until her internal heat burned the touch and I had to let go while she […]

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Checked Out

Every woman needs a man, her mother told her, to make her complete.  To submit, she realizes, too late, soul traded for high-rise living, big city dreams numbing inner losses; she eats to appease an inner sorrow, a second-rate childhood, afraid of being a burden, loathe to create a stir, conditioned complacency: appeasing, pleasing, follows […]

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Re-de-fine-d

Ask me how I’m doing and I’ll say “fine”, not because I’m actually “fine” but because “fine” is the only socially acceptable response. If I said that I have been lying here for three hours now trying to will my body to movement that would elicit unsolicited advice and tarnish my “fine” I’d berate myself […]

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Maybe, Leave Me Out of It?

Please be warned, if you invite me to share in an issue about which you are overworked, I will involve myself. While you are attempting to ascend, I will be vetting out the underminer – aiming at sizeable transformation. I will dress myself in false shades of compassion, pretend grace, while all the while prodding […]

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Day 162 “Competitive Communication”

The sound of tinkling glass alerted me to an incoming text and despite the company around me, I had to look. “A new video of the baby!”  I exclaimed, hitting play before anyone could protest.  (As if that would stop me anyway.) “Look at how tiny she is,” my friend noted.  “My granddaughter is twice […]

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Acceptance

“I know what I want to give my Father.”  Dee looked at me through her veil of blonde hair.  Her face always bore such sweetness, yet the young girl I knew was so intense. “Tell me.” Dee was dying.  This was her third dance with cancer, and the doctor’s said it would be her last.  […]

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Whiskey Fights

Most evenings I would return home from work at 10:30 exhausted by my day.  Juggling school, homework, and a part-time job was taxing, particularly as I worked from six to ten, four evenings a week, as well as eight hours on Saturdays.  Typically, I would stop to visit with my parents before heading off to […]

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Gift of Communication

It was a Friday afternoon and I was picking up my three children from school.  Within five minutes of climbing on board, the oldest had her younger brother in tears.  I felt my ire rising. By the time we got home, she was lacing into me.  My first instinct was to let her know who […]

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