Who Speaks For The Silent?

Your voice, he said, it sounds…different… Project your voiceI learned in theatre,speak to the backkeep it strongdon’t falter I had to replay your message several times…. Hold that notedig deep –from the diaphragmsing from your belly Must be something wrong with the machine… Demonstrate convictionlet your tone convey passionstand tall, be confidentmotivate your audienceDad, the […]

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Gnawing

I’m gnawing on possibilitythe suggestion that my dabblingcould amount to something What? my gut protestsreminds me of limitationsphysical constraints But I’ve had room to breatheand resources at handand creativity, expansive dwells in possibilitynibbles at suggestionsmind scrabbles to find excuses – laundry,a drawer that needs sortingbut the door has opened and I’m seeing a patha way […]

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Time To Cruise Is Not Now

Is there an itinerary for this lockdown?I watch as engagements line up Adventure-seekers, eager to connectwillingly engage, purchase a ticket How I would give my life to be a parthop aboard a sailing ship, escape Except disability has recalled my passport;I am a vehicle without fuel, grounded Disappointment and I watch as familiar faces venture […]

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Ride Along With Me (2)

Passenger, am Ibackseat travellerinput unsolicited I ride along. Passenger, am Iview limiteddirection speculative I am not driving. Driver is motivatedself-assuredI relax…untiltemptation boards Wait a minute; who invited temptation? Driver is distractedego taking the wheelWho’s paying attention? I am not alone. Lackadaisical dropoutsits with me – moochand weekend boozer How did he get here? Vehicle is […]

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Shadow Dancing

Inessential am I ghost of a woman burden avoidance Imperfect am I each flaw a step towards deepening blue And yet,  I exist purpose unknown shadow dancing. (Image: Self-portrait)

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Turning Point

Played host to insecurity – catered to bullying undermined by warped agendas, butchered by provincial minds – Retreated, convalesced, sanitized lost vitality, believed in phantoms haunted by compulsions deflected attempted rescues ignored counsel to let go. Shell-shocked aftermaths incoherent self-judgment inescapable. Where do I go from here? Ignore criticism disarm cruelty sanctify privacy detach, discern […]

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Isolation’s Hold

Disability covets isolation – this stripped-back, box-like state. Rustic serenity, with room to breathe would be preferable but old memories creep in, and lack of self-worth leaves the door open phantoms of former torments unwanted visitors, shadowy invaders target loneliness, misconstrue lack of health for neediness, prey on weak – hearted, presume incapability. I am […]

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Bystander

Dare I confess the hollowness of my heart How emptiness echoes in its chambers How lost I feel inside This is no sanctity no secure refuge my withdrawal is a sham I stand by, observe – circles entwine, embrace – recognize the power of love Practice the words extend warmth and retreat, before connection ignites […]

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Insecurity Resolved

Unnerved by invitations – isolation equates with security – fear the onslaught of questions, the unleashing of a torrent – emotions flooding, crashing through this gated illusion – best to withdraw. Withdraw my best when gated by illusion crashing, emotions flood – need to tame this torrent question the onslaught, brave insecurity, negate isolation embrace […]

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Travelling Solo

Chill and fog cloud my senses – effective distraction loneliness holds no sway. Others speed past, while I advance, slow, steady – drawn by an unknown Presence, who may or may not receive me well at this road’s end I cannot tell. Pray indifference does not await me – have suffered enough no stomach for […]

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