Absence

Originally posted on One Woman's Quest:
Slippers, perched at night stand, twitching impatiently, mark the absence of feet, cannot appreciate the meaning of unruffled bed covers. Abandoned, a coffee mug bemoans its curdling contents, complains of thick brown lines contaminating its porcelain shine, has not noted absence of hands. Chair, pushed back from desk,…

Solitudes

Solitude, I dream of expansive landscapes, crave your panoramic silence, thrill to the ideal of your boundless sanctity Solitude, you wrap me in separateness, strip away my cardboard walls, tear at the corners of my instability; no refuge from the stillness Solitude, I am smothered by your starkness, by my starkness, cries of madness reverberating […]

Bureaucratic Dystopia

Bureaucratic automatons privy to personal dilemmas fuss over delegated tasks – vessels sans initiative – policy makers overriding common sense, common decency paper pushers passing verdicts condemning downtrodden, unable to fight whose day-to-day living – questionable at best – lacks the necessary survival guide – procedural forms dehumanize suffering, cubby-holed egos void support, icily authoritative […]

Missing Lessons

No point hanging onto past – education is not preparation when illness decides to drop in neither Algebra, nor Social Science offers clues for solving the equation: Life minus ability equals:  what? Curriculum based on harsh realities would instruct how to tie up loose ends, gather what’s important, remain calm while filling prescriptions and countless […]

Vegas Vampire

Envision Vegas – the first time – adrenaline pumping, palms itchy, wide-eyed incredulity, and … the most unreliable, stuck-in-the-mud relative in tow, and no reservations made; and while one wants to dive in the other would rather be home knitting and listening to bird calls than  traipsing through costumed Elvis’ – glitzy hotels are too […]

Appearances

Testing social waters – that cherished state of interaction – prone to revealing too much, learning have been homebound, studying life without a facilitator, now attempting to penetrate invisibility – see me now? gathering the salvageable bits – minimal fragments of a once whole woman – reaching out, reconnecting – mixed receptions admittedly much has […]

Party Adverse

Will not catch me gavotting at a party in the Carly Simon vein – am reluctant at best, certain my flaws are neon, fear scrutinizing attention. Throw a boss in the mix and I am all bumble, cringe with each idiotic phrase I utter, terrified to implode – immortalize my inadequacy. Course, it’s all nonsense […]

Qualifier

Hurdles line up before me, am I at the starting gate? Who will hire me? Will I be able to learn? Can I leave the house? Each bar set higher, formidable tasks to achieve, doubting.. state of dependence, chronic ailments, undercut propulsion.. have cleared course of busy, overworking professional attire.. have the motivation to rejoin […]