
Ducks In a Row
I’m trying to be practical and methodical about the upcoming move, but emotions cloud the process. I fluctuate between excitement and trepidation. Moving, after all, does require letting go.
We’ve been going through the boxes in storage – things we’ve moved from house to house, and seldom looked at. Ric found his mother’s silver serving utensils and has been paralyzed for a day contemplating what to do about them. I suggest he should save them for his next wife, in case she likes polishing.
Thank goodness for timelines and lists. It forces us to stay on track. Must keep those ducks in a row.
Monday Mood: bursting
It started Thursday evening when we picked up our 10-year-old granddaughter for a dinner out. The conversation was lively and I learned so much about the world from her perspective.
Then Saturday, our oldest daughter announced she was playing her first ever hockey game, so we drove to the city to watch. I didn’t even know she could skate, and turns out neither did she. She faced her fear and did it anyway. So proud of her.
Yesterday, two of the kids dropped by to pick up some furniture, with the 4-year-old in tow, announcing she had come to play. We chatted over a snack, coloured princesses, read about princesses, had another snack, and shared lots of cuddles.
One of my goals in moving back to the city is to be closer to family. It’s already happening, and this Granny’s heart is bursting.
Be As the Bloom
Are we awake
barely breathing?
Mounting raucous
shattering sensibility
Hatred building
rights withering
Who will survive?
I, chirps
the solo bloom
Timid-voiced
overlooked
radiant in her fragility
confident
Breathe
(Art my own)
Wren (haiku)
Resilience
Boxes are filling up around us. We’re making a dent in our to-do lists. Doubt seeps in. Are we doing the right thing?
Then I remember all the reasons behind making this choice and affirm:
We are dismantling one life to build another, purposeful existence.
Monday Mood: squirrely
The movers need to be arranged, and the closets sorted and packed, and when was the last time we bought groceries….
Head and attention are going in too many directions at once, and I’m exhausted before I get started. Might be a little cranky too.
The stress of moving is real.
Daring
Sidestepped comfort
dared to breach
personal boundaries
Knew it was a stretch
Uncouth, this bodily response
pain penetrating
Dark thoughts wrestling
inner rebel smirking
I gleaned a moment of freedom
But at what cost?
(ME/cfs is characterized by exhaustion following exertion. Post Exertional Malaise (PEM) is the result, causing symptoms to flare.)
Fire (haiku)
Try Routine
On our family chat, the kids have been making fun of the number of times I have moved house. Later, my daughter ask me about it.
“Don’t you feel funny about leaving all the ties you’ve made?” she asked.
“The ties that matter stay intact,” I assure her. “It’s the adventure of the new that I am looking forward to. Change always leads to good things.”
Well, in my experience anyway.

