Passion for writing ignites my soul's momentum
Much planning involved in duplicity, when absence of feminine is intent – no amount of research can release her, buried in a home within a home. Empty out existing observations, imposed interpretations – education only served to dismay us further – all erasable. Forensic investigation required to grasp the inner workings, only seasoned visitors have […]
Formative years were more destruct than construct; contradictions riddled the foundation of our familial structure: one man tyrannized five females while in the news, women marched for equality; called the likes of him a male chauvinist. Aunt drove a forklift truck, looked like a man, chalked one up for women’s liberation, didn’t talk about her […]
Found an old diary – days when I prayed to the angels, painted myself white, believed in a God that cared about personal forever after – painted myself pathetic. Took me back to days of heartbreak, when I pined after a man, noncommittal, painted myself pink – an altruistic heart yearning after unrequitable love, willing […]
Reminds me of home – Dad’s drinking, dressing up, keeping up appearances; a woman without a voice, public persona all important: must disguise private hell. Daddy was driven by money and compulsions; could not see desperation in our eyes, we were running away, seeking our own solace in forbidden places, hell’s legacy. An overboard existence […]
At the age of four, I moved with my family into a new house that my father had built, on the outskirts of town. The day of our move my mother disappeared, and left to my own devices, I defied my father’s rules about staying out of certain parts of the house and discovered secret […]
Death has visited us, and subsequently, visitations, and a funeral. Ours was a loss long anticipated, suffering relieved by passing on. Dutifully, I planned to accompany Mom, show support, and represent our side. Disability answers to its own drum, and this added stress inflamed the beat. Attempts at resting, met fired adrenals – locked on […]
Remember when we were lovers, and would stay all out night – me full of bravado, you coaxing one more drink? I’d awaken the next morning head thick and fogged and you’d reassure me that the car was in the driveway safe and sound and want to do it all over again but I’d have […]
The man seated across the table pried me with questions. “Who played Wendy?” he asked. “Was it you?” I nodded. “And who played the Hooker?” “Also me.” “Really,” he drew the word out as if chewing on it. “Both you?” We were celebrating closing night at a local eatery. My questioner was not a familiar […]
Something’s happened to Billy! I shot bolt upright in bed. He had just been here. I saw him standing at the end of my bed, but that was not possible: Billy lived miles away in the country and it was the dead of winter. How could he have gotten here? I lay back down on […]
The tiny crayfish slowly made its way over the rocky water bed, climbing in and out of crevices, antennae constantly moving. Perched on my haunches, trying valiantly not to move and startle the small creature, I watched in fascination. His translucent body moved with such tenacity over what must surely be a challenging terrain for […]
