In the Weeds
Barrage of fearsplague each dreamrender me useless Invoke positivity, you say,but the voices persistintimate familiars I set each fright adrifthide among the weedspray for a moment’s reprieve. (Image mine)
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Bystander
Dare I confess the hollowness of my heart How emptiness echoes in its chambers How lost I feel inside This is no sanctity no secure refuge my withdrawal is a sham I stand by, observe – circles entwine, embrace – recognize the power of love Practice the words extend warmth and retreat, before connection ignites […]
Read MoreUnsettled
Unsettled, worry’s guest – change binds me, spineless… this waiting is venom, caution enticing, pursue transformation, big, small – and diversion to eliminate the parasites. Intellect needs a cure, neediness burdensome – taking charge messy. Responsibility my own.
Read MoreSmoking Pit
Cigarette butts no longer linger concrete, but I swear the cloud of smoke lingers, the sweat of adolescent anxiety – the suffocating pressure to comply – Names escape, but I remember smugness and rivalry, and the spine-crawling fear of confrontation, and indisputable in my mind are the scars of being so alone. (Written for Twenty […]
Read MoreCalm Yourself, Woman
Circumstances shift – breath the fertile air – let dreams fly; expand embrace change – hope, now winged, an explorer bursting with possibility. I would move this old body, relocate to new beginnings, be reborn but for these internal trappings – begging for extermination – retro shaded memories – long past expiration – skewed accessibility, […]
Read MoreDisruption
Absence of table echoes in a room reserved for its central role – I am at a loss, no explanation proceeding this disappearance have just woken from a slumber deep, to this hole in certitude grasp for answers wonder at significance if I’ve missed signals question permanence left with silliness of chairs, the mockery of […]
Read MoreThere, There
I wrestle with sleep – need overpowered by unease, senses on high alert, as if a child trying to intuit the degree of volatility in father’s drunken slur what will it take to find rest, to reassure the littles that the tyrant is gone and life will unfold as it will without the stress of […]
Read MoreWasted Time
It’s Monday again – days passing through my hands like sand, no receptacle in which to catch the granules – why this sense of urgency? In high school, I played hooky wiped away the hours in empty places, sought answers for questions I could not articulate, chased dust while others formulated dreams – how is […]
Read MoreFruitless
Fruitless is worry – useless sensitivity undermining vibrancy – love smitten are victims, pause as memories rise analyze old wounds revile infatuations pain threatening uncertainty too rough a ride – open arms wilt with inactivity, isolated, regretful, ideals grounded, smashed by fruitless worry.
Read MoreOff Stage Fright
Point me towards the boards; watch me improvise – calm rehearsed, funny mastered, catering to audiences a forte’, command performances key to locking out this perusing soul’s wordless angst – will unleash soliloquies, cleverly unscripted quips to delight well-attended audiences, on queue hijinks, will not miss a line, or quit the show, find refuge in […]
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