Another Chapter Closes

House creaksferociousdecries starknessof bare wallsabsence of furniturefinality of boxesstacked and sealed Sleep eludes memind recallingpassages –his cancermy feartwist of fatethat left me housebound We could not stay herethis place chosen for healingturned prison “You’ve been good to us”I whisper, “Nowyou’ll favour someone else” She grumbles in responsethis old house, sharingmy trepidationof unknowns, changealways precarious Another […]

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Moving

The rumble of men’s voicesgrunting shifts beneathheavy wooden furnishings The transition is underwayBroom and cloth at handI hover out of sight Will erase each vestige of usbless this passage, prepareto welcome the new. (Moving day! Prewritten for Eugi’s Causerie weekly prompt: transition. Image mine.We will not have access to the internet for a few days. […]

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Waiting on Heaven

“My children have come home to watch me die,” she tells her doctor, repeats to me, #5, when I arrive. “You leave the world the same you came in,” Doc said, as if that makes sense, as if that offers comfort. “We don’t want to see you suffer anymore,” I offer. She agrees, tired of […]

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Pivotal Moment

Two babies, two cars, a mortgage, and depression I just couldn’t shake.  What was wrong with me, I wondered.  Was I missing something?  Is there more to life, I’m not seeing?  I prayed to the Heavens. Six months, I dreamt of returning to my childhood home.  Every time, I remarked the same changes: the blue […]

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Moving

Outside, clouds hover, heavy, threatening. Inside, men haul – china cabinet, weathered couch – accumulation marking years, exiting under duress echoes fill in the spaces scent of soured sweat lingers kitchen counters glare, empty layers of our lives stripped away our vacated shell, an emotional tug Is it fear?  Sorrow? What was it all about […]

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Let Me Surrender

What corridor is this? What beckoning – wordless sublime… is this awakening or does death posture in shadows… my heart yearns mourns … to be absolved of this strife Let me surrender let Grace guide uncertain limbs carry me… I am ready…

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Is Progress This?

Is this progress, this decision to uproot, caste possessions aside, free ourselves of ties? Can his dependency, my dependency, endure the transition, released from former justifications? We are companions embarking on adventure, companions retiring past lies, redefining possibility or is this more of the same, artfully camouflaged – a continuance of flight from tyrannical origins? […]

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Retirement

Sought-out careers stagnant communication with colleagues soaked with commitments – underlying imposed courtesy we are doubly dependent – mutual caregivers supporting water treading, our authority drowning in preset obligations Past dwellings, connections sopped with history, hold on – leftover dregs, stale-dated – their validity disappearing, We are overcoming, debriefing, navigating release, minimilizing plan to alter […]

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Absence

Slippers, perched at night stand, twitching impatiently, mark the absence of feet, cannot appreciate the meaning of unruffled bed covers. Abandoned, a coffee mug bemoans its curdling contents, complains of thick brown lines contaminating its porcelain shine, has not noted absence of hands. Chair, pushed back from desk, in partial rotation, sits awkwardly, commanding attention, […]

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The Ocean Awaits

This old house wraps itself around me, radiates the warmth of memories, a solid testament to the passage of time, offers space to grow, a hospitable and loving place, I am safe here. In my dreams, the ocean awaits, a rhythmic keeper of time, reflecting clouds, moonlight, raging with the storms, in quiet times, calming […]

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