Not Thursday

Today is ThursdayI’m certain of itThursdays Mom callsafter her hair appointment But she hasn’t calledand I can’t find that showI watch on Thursday nightsDid they change the programming? And then I rememberthat garbage goes outThursday nightand so I scramble, but everyone else has forgottenhow can this be?Today is Thursdayand nothing is going right. (For Reena’s […]

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Stifled Progress

Nothing about the job intimidates him –has lived the ups and downs of mental health –besides, he cries for the children, abandonedwho jump from home to institution, lost. Nods at warnings about attachment knows all the drills of the hospital feels certain he’s found his place – is hit hard by the rejection Seems personal […]

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Roar!

Situational – term used to describe this current state – illness a thief perpetuates the crime – loss cavernous depression real and still, Spirit roars.

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Isolation’s Hold

Disability covets isolation – this stripped-back, box-like state. Rustic serenity, with room to breathe would be preferable but old memories creep in, and lack of self-worth leaves the door open phantoms of former torments unwanted visitors, shadowy invaders target loneliness, misconstrue lack of health for neediness, prey on weak – hearted, presume incapability. I am […]

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Sleeping Alone

Sleeping alone with so much intrusion – child born of good intentions awash in a trail of barricades I cope, cook up breezes, strike wet ground – stuff myself to satiate the onslaught, ground rapidly shifting – Earth Mother exerting presence – too stubborn, I turn away, look for God but my cup keeps moving […]

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Application Submitted

Eager, I am, but limited, somehow stuck in the past, revisiting old disruptions – as unmanageable as before – Why do I seek validation there? Vow to write a solution – end up re-committing – am I growing extra skin? naiveté blocks me – am fascinated with fame Want to believe I am magical, possess […]

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A Bee’s Perspective

(Note:  I draw much of my inspiration from dreams, and recently I’ve been challenging myself to write prose as well as poetry.   This poem and the piece, The Vortex, are inspired by the same dream.) A bee, caught in a violent draught, collides with woman her body a salty concrete wall of frenzy, she is […]

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Watery Fate

Unconsciousness – like an iron anchor – has dragged my lifeless body, abandoned her on the ocean floor I am afraid to stir, even a little, certain that pieces of me will break away drifting into the unknown, irretrievable. Somehow, I have learned to breathe under water, have memory of wholeness, but am unglued, earthly […]

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Party Adverse

Will not catch me gavotting at a party in the Carly Simon vein – am reluctant at best, certain my flaws are neon, fear scrutinizing attention. Throw a boss in the mix and I am all bumble, cringe with each idiotic phrase I utter, terrified to implode – immortalize my inadequacy. Course, it’s all nonsense […]

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Keep Distance!

Keep distance! Inner child intimate with abuse; a sad comedian spontaneity ploy masking deadness – major screwup – God’s grace unscathed minus mishaps hip movement frozen scream roads collide life on periphery repercussions cognitive gears breaking ice encountering foes reflexes delayed safety intangible borrowing time health a trial defeat conceded relinquished control Keep distance! Inner […]

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