Have opted for a minimalist existence –
efficiency dependent on accessibility –
still suffering the effects of disease, age.
Used to dwell in the sarcasm of fixed roots,
keep-up-with-the-status-quo, thought that
swapping furniture equated with renewal
Now the only fitting-in we do relates to
rig size and whether or not the next stop
on the road can accommodate our home
Have sold off the real estate, motivated
by simplicity; seek vistas that restore
our souls, preferably with a water view.
We are comfortable marrieds, adapting
new perspectives, easing out of the shell –
shock of former agendas, rat-race lives.
He is the planner,
planning routes and stops,
measuring distances, researching
particulars, focused on specifics
I am the organizer,
organizing a mass cull,
distribution of worldly possessions
to kids, goodwill, or garage sales
He is the scheduler,
I am the communicator,
answering emails, phone calls
reassuring family left behind
We lose each other
in the preparation scramble,
absorbed as we are in personal
agendas, anxious for departure.
The future is unknown,
we have committed to the leap,
replaced obligations with openness,
are setting sail on a new adventure.
We are questers,
questing after discovery,
retreating from a weighty past
leaving judgment in our dust.
We are travellers,
traveling off the beaten track,
chasing vibrant panoramas,
a close proximity to nature’s best.
Is this progress,
this decision to uproot,
caste possessions aside,
free ourselves of ties?
Can his dependency,
my dependency, endure
the transition, released
from former justifications?
We are companions
embarking on adventure,
companions retiring past
lies, redefining possibility
or is this more of the same,
artfully camouflaged –
a continuance of flight
from tyrannical origins?
The paths behind are jagged,
wrought with rocks and crevices
and scarred riddles, and yet,
have we not survived, thrived?
The road ahead is expansive
our home an ever-changing
landscape as wide as a continent
our minds eager to absorb…
this is progress,
we are unburdened,
to new tests of truth.
Sought-out careers stagnant
communication with colleagues
soaked with commitments –
underlying imposed courtesy
we are doubly dependent –
mutual caregivers supporting
water treading, our authority
drowning in preset obligations
Past dwellings, connections
sopped with history, hold on –
leftover dregs, stale-dated –
their validity disappearing,
We are overcoming, debriefing,
navigating release, minimilizing
plan to alter direction, trade
accommodations, rest willingly
have boarded sanctity – a timely
cubicle of release, slotting an exit,
having transformed belonging –
are wrung out seeking drier ground.
I see it in their eyes –
the fear for my safety –
have not been able to paddle
my own boat for some time,
and here I am contemplating
going against the current,
taking a leap, seeking out
new sheltered places.
Survival is risky, they say –
risk is necessary if we’re ever
going to shake this malaise –
no explanation will appease them,
cannot understand the empowerment
that comes from discovering other realities –
promise to stay away from danger –
there are waterways, lands, mountains
to explore – this is not betrayal.
It is moving on, effective collaboration,
we will get along, disclose our differences,
have found willing transport, please
understand, children, we will work
this out, need to create a new reality –
one that allows for relaxation,
celebration – there is nothing left here
but a legacy of suffering, our absence
doesn’t mean our hearts are missing –
our love will be forever present.