Pondering Cruelty

Male mallardonce procuringoffspring, abandons Female, charged with carebecomes a target, oftenkilled by next mate I contemplate the orphansthe cruelty rendered what purpose struggle serves. (Tuesdays I borrow from Twitter @Vjknutson. Image my own.)

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Indecisive

Decisions weightyI plan but am dividedhalf sailing; half cowering Optimism cheeryexperience berating Nested in traditioncraving alternatives Can I not see that plansare investments,overcome the fearin favour of expansion. (Writing this I am reminded of the saying: “I used to be indecisive; now I’m not so sure.” Image my own.)

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Duelling Personas

Outward facing – contrived effort – composure checked, face appropriately presented. I turn away – internal chaos clouding – lacking resources for social banter Wolves taunt me – predatory monsters shaming me into retreat – defences down. Wade back into superficial, desperation seeking solace – hide the flooding within.    

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Losing Ground

In corners, I scrounge – resilience fading; hope, it seems, is sleeping. Living a quarter life, even ascents depressed; dubious that alternatives are worthwhile. Walls would suffice – once dreamt of co-habitating with abundance, now housed with constraints. Age losing preferences, counting worries either way.

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Accustomed to the Dark

Nine months of incubation – dark, watery womb of life – emerge to blinding brightness, learn to covet the light – yet our soul struggles, defies ego’s hold on certainty – fights against conformity, draws us back to the tomb – deep into the mysteries, where discomforted, challenged we grow accustomed to the dark. (For […]

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A Call for Harmony

6:30 a.m. alarm sounds. “Time to wake up!” Compliance commands. “Just a little longer,”  Sensibility suggests. Guilt, like an incessantly annoying child tugs on Conscience: “Come on; there’s lots to do!” Body does not respond. Sleep wins and dreams come: homeless, relying on friends, no food, backed up toilet, children’s wide eyes fearfully imploring: When […]

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Internal Struggle

Onramp for freedom is just ahead but all considered, I will not push forward, am fragile, misinterpret signs.  Add to it isolation – who can blame me…. Move! Move with the throngs! Set your intentions, correct and change direction – take a tangent even – future is just around the corner….. Wears me out; I […]

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Mermaid Dreams

Descending into the mythical, entranced, supported by the severity of this current difficulty call it fantasy, but attempting movement is destroying my passage I am pulling, shattering this barricade of a life; blue progressing: ocean bound. (Image: nauticalcottageblog.com) To see how I created this poem visit: Composing Poetry    

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On Suffering

“All I need is to win the lottery,” Mae often proclaims. “That’s not true,” I tell her. “But if I had enough money, my problems would all be solved.” “No.  If you had lots of money, you would still be schizophrenic.” She takes this in and nods solemnly.  Then she laughs.  “You’re so funny.” “I […]

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