A 60’s Childhood

Formative years were more destruct than construct; contradictions riddled the foundation of our familial structure: one man tyrannized five females while in the news, women marched for equality; called the likes of him a male chauvinist. Aunt drove a forklift truck, looked like a man, chalked one up for women’s liberation, didn’t talk about her […]

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Glass Caskets

What mysteries lie in ancestral roots, what clues to illuminate the dysfunction that permeated our familial ties, cursed us with a pervasive sense of perversity? We are a portrait of deviancy: still life torsos, dismembered from birth, non- conforming hormonal structures denied reception in the aftermath of Victorianism. An aunt, who despite her outer female […]

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In Remembrance (for Father)

I hold a photo of my father – on that last Remembrance Day – am awed by the person we never knew. Just fifteen, he signed on, joined ranks with an elite squad, trained for unarmed combat. He wears his Commando’s beret, medals proudly adorning his breast – symbols whose meanings are now lost. They […]

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Debonair and Deprived

“Is that you father?” acquaintances would ask – voices deep and dreamy. Particular about his dress, meticulous in his grooming, Dad’s eyes sparkled oceans his dark, wavy curls framing a strong face, his body tall and muscled. I’d tilt my head sideways, incredulous at this response, then realize they’d fallen for his mask – carefully […]

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A Toddler’s Tears

When it comes to caring, I’m a pro – engaged, wholehearted, well… except that my toddler self joins in, and no matter how proper I try to act – she is such a fetching child, bright, inquisitive – she distracts me from purpose, gets me off-track, and I hate being behind, and anxiety acts up, […]

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Family Trappings

Mother, twice married, conveys reluctance, exaggerates fear – charted history obstacles a given. Father’s outing perpetuates disconnection anxiety replacing communication group wishes null Sister desires crack – living spectacle – addiction barrier to forgotten privilege Husband’s end plan race transmissions – dispossessed of direction – a dreamer Fodder for gossip – elaborate gong show – […]

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Can’t Help But Wonder

What chief is this, whose repetitive adolescent antics labour over inconsequential details whilst, as novice, he plies elimination strategies, slashing former goals; this non-monk of a man, inciting global waves of dissention, padding his ego with kin, lining up officials disinclined to disrupt his pillage? What nation is this who believes social standing equates with […]

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Glass Caskets

What mysteries lie in ancestral roots, what clues to illuminate the dysfunction that permeated our familial ties, cursed us with a pervasive sense of perversity? We are a portrait of deviancy: still life torsos, dismembered from birth, non- conforming hormonal structures denied reception in the aftermath of Victorianism. An aunt, who despite her outer female attributes earned […]

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Internal Struggle

Onramp for freedom is just ahead but all considered, I will not push forward, am fragile, misinterpret signs.  Add to it isolation – who can blame me…. Move! Move with the throngs! Set your intentions, correct and change direction – take a tangent even – future is just around the corner….. Wears me out; I […]

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Clearing Corners

No more out-on-the-town bustles – the late afternoon light fading in my corner – focus now turned to higher issues; try to keep company with mindfulness – a worthy educator, facilitating release – but my inventory is too spun. Achieving a semblance of completion, something to reflect my life’s toil, would be welcome, yet I […]

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