Unfair

Sporting crisply pressed regrets and tight-assed judgments, the past happened upon me, caught me mid-mediocracy, eye-balled me with a sneer, and then strolled on by as if I wasn’t even worth a ‘hello’. Wait a minute, I cried out trying to pull myself together, noting too late, my lack of grooming, how unfairly I’d been caught […]

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Dis-abled Self

A wounded creature, I circle the pack; A laggard seeking inroads, missing cues; A social wanna be without the smack – This fogged state a waning of my hues. My path a heartless road through blinding snow, And I without a map or coat, alone – To ask for help, a degradation – No! Tis […]

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Appetite

The initial spoonful – salted caramel cool – consoles bitten tongue, slides down burning throat: appeasement for churning gut. Each spoonful savoured sweetness countering bile, dark chocolate shavings as bittersweet as the emotion being pushed down, buried Bruised by conflict, words ineffectual, ice cream an unworthy compensation, cravings turn to salty reprieve.

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Living With The Enemy

Thought I’d divorced myself from indifference, recovered from abject betrayal, but; here I am, co-habiting with deceit again, occupying uneven ground, reduced to questioning motives and reactions. I’ve been down this road before, dragged through the shame of behind my back whispers – need to confront the perpetrator, and any co-conspirators, stop the home-wrecker before […]

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Fight

Pride hounds sneaky, invasive ugly determination guards a conception family, grandchildren, a portrait of comfort disregards treacherous likeness to poisonous histories, past loathing offender venomous untrustworthy, slithers hunts, eludes detection fleeing only abandons face culprit, wrestle pummel, decapitate denial, disembowel falsehoods, render the serpent impotent peace endures when life examined marries humility and gratitude (Image: […]

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Fear Like a Tarantula

Fear, like a tarantula, descends on me, lands on my sense of responsibility I am unhinged, panicked think only of casting it off repulsed by its ugliness its unbearable horror its unnatural weight and then I remember that terror can be illusory and tarantulas are fragile too and I control my impulse recognize that it […]

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Koolaid

Yellow was the colour of their house, green the lawn upon which we played – the house of boys where fun lived. Ours was two-storey, red brick with black, the colour of our air, privacy fences blocking outsiders, girls within Never heard a voice raised there, was served only milk and cookies in the kitchen; […]

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Needs Not Applicable

Needs, you insolent, little bastards – interfering with my independence, gnawing at these walls Nasty, you are, and heartless – pathetic, infantile, cowardly what part of unwanted do you not understand? I am making a stand – choosing to erect barricades – a stronghold of invincibility – quit circling the fortress your endless chatter annoying […]

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Teach Her Well

(Poem inspired by previous post:  Choosing Self Love ) A locked door a screaming sister a mother in despair a child rejected, scorned, neglected blames herself carries the cross of her mother’s burden through passing years bears responsiblity for a husband’ poor choices; bleeds guilt is still the child, wounded, insecure, her needs abandoned desperation […]

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Questing

Quiet!  the oft heard command of childhood echoes inwardly as if our home was a library our privileges reduced to silent study – passes given for good behaviour – suppressed spirits voiceless observers of a soap played out before an audience of five, bystanders really, forced to watch, unable to comprehend the brutal acts, the […]

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