Separated Self

Reach for her across the abyss of indifference – would hold her dear comfort her sorrows – empty promises, I now understand have abandoned her countless times in the name of obligation, this child that is me.  

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Grownup?

Armed with plans and guidelines, we ready for life’s climb, unaware that childhood, untamed and intact, takes the lead.

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Ronovan’s Haiku Challenge: Child, Safe

Hush Child; you are safe – torment ended, threat dispersed – we have survived, whole. (Ronovan Writes Weekly Haiku Poetry Prompt  is child & safe.)  

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A Toddler’s Tears

When it comes to caring, I’m a pro – engaged, wholehearted, well… except that my toddler self joins in, and no matter how proper I try to act – she is such a fetching child, bright, inquisitive – she distracts me from purpose, gets me off-track, and I hate being behind, and anxiety acts up, […]

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Teach Her Well

(Poem inspired by previous post:  Choosing Self Love ) A locked door a screaming sister a mother in despair a child rejected, scorned, neglected blames herself carries the cross of her mother’s burden through passing years bears responsiblity for a husband’ poor choices; bleeds guilt is still the child, wounded, insecure, her needs abandoned desperation […]

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Alcohol’s Child

Funny, this present impulsivity – am alone, overweight, a dreamer self-propelled, looking for a friend who doesn’t see me as last resort not exactly beside myself with offers – coasting asexuality (inside fickle) will extend libations, marriage, possessions – am willing to sell all like an automaton, will deliver drinks, manufacture abundance Child of alcoholics […]

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Keep Distance!

Keep distance! Inner child intimate with abuse; a sad comedian spontaneity ploy masking deadness – major screwup – God’s grace unscathed minus mishaps hip movement frozen scream roads collide life on periphery repercussions cognitive gears breaking ice encountering foes reflexes delayed safety intangible borrowing time health a trial defeat conceded relinquished control Keep distance! Inner […]

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Time to Re-Parent

Taking ownership of this mess I call life, creates a priority of care – a surrogate for the inner sapling, not too motherly, just accepting; to lead her past the overpopulated vines of despair, root out evil, restore the good – a kindred spirit to ease her little soul – no officious, insecure, put- me-down parent, […]

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Regression

Fear drives me backwards, spinning childhood tales, plunging into frigid waters of isolation, desolation; falling into the unknown; a mission to heal the ruptures, out of season, past and present colliding, frozen in time – I am in need of extraction, need to believe in flight of eagles – innocence’s idol – need to initiate […]

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Dear Child

I know a little girl, whose hair in ringlets falls, unkempt from lack of brushing; who stands when she should be sitting; who laughs with defiance when challenged, her dark eyes gleaming with mischief; who holds her chin up high and stamps her feet, arms folded in protest when she does not get her way. […]

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