Deceit

“I’d like to get you know more,”he said, pulling up a chairmet with stunned silence “Truly,” he prodded, “I feelas if we’ve drifted apart,and I’ve ignored us.” I might have said “No kidding”but hope swelled with his wordsand I blurted: “Ask away.” So he listened,as he had that first nightwhen tipsy and enamoured We’d stumbled […]

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Irreconcilable Differences

Could talk for lengthsabout manifolds,hydraulics – handsstained with grease And when I offeredcarefully manicuredheart, spoke wordsof togetherness Silence engulfed himducking beneath hoodwrench twisting –relationship vanished (Image mine)

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Toxicity

Sold my soul for union – destruction built-in Narcissism is a bastard luxuriates in self-catering Did not anticipate loss – innocence slaughtered Force to grow sensibility don a tough shell – Would not let betrayal call me by name. It was not meandering that shredded my heart but the loss of a child caught in […]

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The Pawn

Of course she is away caught in the schism of her parents’ divorce played like a pawn She is emotionally numb incapable of articulating wants and desires – broken though no one notices. (Poem originally appeared on Twitter.  Visit me @Vjknutson.  Image from personal collection.)

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Window Cleaning

Married addiction adopted denial settled for basics Espoused spirituality ignored infidelity, pulled down the blinds. Believed compassion could compensate for indifference. Limited my outlook to windows, too insecure to de-smudge the pane. Missed the gaping doorways, the blatant rudeness of belligerent disrespect Till withdrawal prompted accountability, commanded ownership, changed the lock. (Image from personal collection.)

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Loss and Light

Absence fills the silence with shadowy wings becomes a raven sharp-taloned, razor-beaked I cower loss too immense for comprehension would lay my body down be consumed, but for the children’e eyes pinning me their woeful gazes, begging to be uplifted I am abandoned and not a flicker called to be beacon. (Art from personal collection)

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He’s Gone

In darkened room I lie, willing blackness to obliterate blackness. A scream, unearthed from dankness shatters the silence, echoes off heartless walls, shock waves reverberate relentless torment seventeen years… committed, no… dedicated ripped away leaving me nothing I fall, spiral reel out of control breaking down tomorrow, the children will return the house will fill […]

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Seasons of Love

Winter came early – seeped into intimate corners, froze hearts. Walls papered white, intending cheer, only accented bitter cold. Layers of submission, hope, denial, ineffectual in refueling the warmth. She followed him down the unavoidable slope deep into the abyss. Chilled, shaken she braced for the arduous trek ahead, injected lightness into an impossible situation, […]

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Heartquake

mind regresses in the aftershock – tremors of misspent devotion reverberate suffocating debris teenage hearts caught in the quake – a marital schism – plucked unripe sweetness battered I, colourless abandoned, like a runner-up in a beauty pageant forgotten, flailed failed as a mother withdrawn, rattled psyche exploding survival a slow crawl challenges weighty aligned […]

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Sanctity

He possessed a certain divinity, a soft-spoken modesty she read as safe harbour, fell for maiden-like innocence, her blessed compliance. Married in the sacred way, carnal mounting accentuating a tailored love – husband and wife exploring, celebrating glorious submission until joy plummeted – impossible to duplicate infatuation in a void – they grasped at objects, […]

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