Need A Verb

Movement abandonsI grasp for something…concrete……air to breathe… am fast becoming…sedimentary…an object Need a verb –transitive –to drive me – The wind lifted herThe sun inspired herThe day healed her… (Image my own)

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Teach Me

Teach me reverenceam losing groundchildren adultingmothering in a void Teach me acceptancedisability’s waters floodI’m in the marginsan afterthought I concede life changesrelease control – passionbegs an outlet; I am wornbut I am open. Teach me. (Image mine)

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Insecurity Resolved

Unnerved by invitations – isolation equates with security – fear the onslaught of questions, the unleashing of a torrent – emotions flooding, crashing through this gated illusion – best to withdraw. Withdraw my best when gated by illusion crashing, emotions flood – need to tame this torrent question the onslaught, brave insecurity, negate isolation embrace […]

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Levitating

Suits meet, banter about deals, conspiratorial heads bent, deep throaty laughs, confidence reeking. I glide by, imperceptibly, am a whisper on the window of their intensity. Families congregate on front lawns, squeals of delight trailing blurs, adult murmurs lost in shrill echoes. I float on by, an ethereal witness, no more than the wisp of […]

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What Scars Remain?

Should I escape these shackles, manage to re-surface, swim despite this weakened condition against the currents of disability, find myself once again on the solid grounds of civilization; will I be embraced with cheers of victory, or slotted into some backroom, reserved for the fallen, spoken to in hushed tones, forever handled at arms length, […]

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Dis-abled Self

A wounded creature, I circle the pack; A laggard seeking inroads, missing cues; A social wanna be without the smack – This fogged state a waning of my hues. My path a heartless road through blinding snow, And I without a map or coat, alone – To ask for help, a degradation – No! Tis […]

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Paper Pushing

I am contributing! Are these lessons not abundance – success? Authorities are dissatisfied; want me back in the game, insist disability has an end – analyze me to depletion their plans shutting me down, unforgiving – Encouragement is called for, and hopeful help, something to prod progress This bureaucratic tapping turns on me, creativity breaks […]

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The Same, But Broken (Take 2)

(Note:  I am revisiting old posts, trashing the unimpressive, and where possible, editing.  This is an edited version of an earlier poem.  Visit the original here.) Pervasive fragility blindsides – reduced to stretched and torn fibers – I teeter, mind obsessed, overwhelmed I am weeping…and not, frustrated by impossibility unwilling to face loss – cannot […]

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Bureaucratic Dystopia

Bureaucratic automatons privy to personal dilemmas fuss over delegated tasks – vessels sans initiative – policy makers overriding common sense, common decency paper pushers passing verdicts condemning downtrodden, unable to fight whose day-to-day living – questionable at best – lacks the necessary survival guide – procedural forms dehumanize suffering, cubby-holed egos void support, icily authoritative […]

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Watery Fate

Unconsciousness – like an iron anchor – has dragged my lifeless body, abandoned her on the ocean floor I am afraid to stir, even a little, certain that pieces of me will break away drifting into the unknown, irretrievable. Somehow, I have learned to breathe under water, have memory of wholeness, but am unglued, earthly […]

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