Insecurity Resolved

Unnerved by invitations – isolation equates with security – fear the onslaught of questions, the unleashing of a torrent – emotions flooding, crashing through this gated illusion – best to withdraw. Withdraw my best when gated by illusion crashing, emotions flood – need to tame this torrent question the onslaught, brave insecurity, negate isolation embrace […]

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Present

I am losing ground, disinterest piling up, suffocating – I moan childish communication enraged, and humiliated, hurt; my opinion more impulse than acceptable relatives bitch, correct, dethrone me – an outsider sidling in, like a politician mingling, lingering, attacked why am I so dependent on this oddball interaction? celebration is just a formality and my […]

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Invitation Anxiety

Social invitations sing of acceptance, delightful opportunity to intermingle for the hale, the rehearsed, practiced in the choreography of wardrobe appropriateness disability cringes – NO! contrived behaviour suitable for enacting a script too stressing compromised memory can’t learn lines – intellect impaired, not improv-friendly – RETREAT! isolation a recurring sentence, illness the jailor; except anxiety […]

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Party Adverse

Will not catch me gavotting at a party in the Carly Simon vein – am reluctant at best, certain my flaws are neon, fear scrutinizing attention. Throw a boss in the mix and I am all bumble, cringe with each idiotic phrase I utter, terrified to implode – immortalize my inadequacy. Course, it’s all nonsense […]

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