Funny, this present impulsivity –
am alone, overweight, a dreamer
self-propelled, looking for a friend
who doesn’t see me as last resort
not exactly beside myself with offers –
coasting asexuality (inside fickle)
will extend libations, marriage,
possessions – am willing to sell all
like an automaton, will deliver
drinks, manufacture abundance
Child of alcoholics in attendance –
a comic, in charge and hesitant
at ease, I am hopeful, the original
leisure queen – avoid rows at all cost
live for the moment, dream of beaches,
never married, non-conforming, team
quencher – will promote any dreams
(but my own) – like a mechanical bull
dizzy, in need of social management
or at least, a friend who finds me worthy
all needs met here – delegate away –
I am soda pop refreshment, slightly
oddball, restless, and okay, a little
needy – just not able to befriend myself.
oh my i could relate to this so much. ty for sharing your words. xx
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You are welcome – and I appreciate the encouragement. My therapist suggested I let “the others” talk – and I discovered this voice.
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It sounds like you have some in her children inner parts like we do, we are multiple but we have dissociated parts of ourselves so those alternate personalities altars, if you know what I mean XXX
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I do know what you mean – have known two multiples. I think we all split to a certain extent – fragment if you like – some more than others, obviously. It is a courageous journey you take and I admire you for it.
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Beautiful 💛
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Thank you.
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