Unrestricted

Chronic this painfinite the energyfuels each day Ability to wonder,marvel at nature –without limits Thoughts, like leavesbreak away, swirlfloat on the wind – I am at onewith possibilityfree to create (Tuesdays, I borrow from Twitter @Vjknutson. Image my own)

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Routine

Depression monitors my movementseyes me from across the road, waits I struggle to define myself, hereat the margins of life, career lost As teacher, days were outlinedbells, rubrics, and semesters Now I must learn again, findpurpose in nothingness Despair wants to move in, overwhelmBut I’m building my fences, regaining routines – markers motivatingeach day – […]

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Rain

Rain has returnedWinter’s fickle natureoverturning hope I cower beneath bedsheets, bodyon fire – await an impulse greaterthan this pain –creativity the antidote. (Tuesdays I borrow from Twitter @Vjknutson. Image my own.

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Ride Along With Me (2)

Passenger, am Ibackseat travellerinput unsolicited I ride along. Passenger, am Iview limiteddirection speculative I am not driving. Driver is motivatedself-assuredI relax…untiltemptation boards Wait a minute; who invited temptation? Driver is distractedego taking the wheelWho’s paying attention? I am not alone. Lackadaisical dropoutsits with me – moochand weekend boozer How did he get here? Vehicle is […]

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Spooning

I have measured out my life with coffee spoons.” Source: “The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock” by T.S. Eliot I line my spoons on the counter – measures of the day’s reserves one spoon for morning tea with a side of emails read a shower requires two or three with a guarantee of needed […]

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Watery Stagnation

Knee-deep wading in electric yellow waters of mud-laden stream the coveted prize – a mutated version – Christ’s fish hovers arms reach away – have touched it – recoiled out of fear. Status is stagnation – movement stymied current lacking Only the constant thrum of winged pests belligerence punctures stillness, irritates – its hard shelled […]

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Ache

Sky darkens burdened clouds release sorrow in empathy body throbs – aching harmonics. (Twitter Tuesday @Vjknutson)

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What Scars Remain?

Should I escape these shackles, manage to re-surface, swim despite this weakened condition against the currents of disability, find myself once again on the solid grounds of civilization; will I be embraced with cheers of victory, or slotted into some backroom, reserved for the fallen, spoken to in hushed tones, forever handled at arms length, […]

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Attack

Compromised, scaling a steep dangerous cliff wall desiring relief, a sign to indicate a turning point an exit nothing worldly can calm anxiety uncertainty life on hold kindness warms, reassures, cannot counter looming reality stifled, begging willing to deal response absent pleas hollow surrendering to fear is not an option strength called for and courage […]

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