Toxic

I drink the backwashof hollowed out promises Is it me, invites indifferenceexpectations so low, selfgowned in layered shame? How do I learn otherwisebreak this toxic patternif not in pursuit of love? (Tuesdays I borrow from Twitter @Vjknutson. Image my own)

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What Legacy?

And when the fatal breath expelsand all is quiet, will you remember me Bright as an orange bloomwith my words locked inside A poem inspiring eternityor will my essence shrivel Be lost – like dust particlesexposed in afternoon sunbeams? (Image my own.)

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Still Digging

Father, as immoveable as a mountain taught us to orchestrate submontane routes Circumnavigating his rocky moods bestowed upon us a fear of masculinity Resilience instilled the necessity of mining gold from darkness: still digging. (Sketch mine)

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Love Lessons

Had a weird sort of lexicon the man who professed to be my dad – Clamped in his chokehold he’d demand words of devotion Became inured to this dichotomy – spent a lifetime searching for love – Just the right balance of cruelty and kind. (Tuesdays, I borrow from Twitter @Vjknutson.  Sketch mine.)

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Familial Legacy

“…too young to notice how fear persists, and how the anger that causes fear persists…” – Immortality, by Lisel Mueller Purposeful, this fortress permanently ungrounded Burdened without bearing fear underlying motivation Reassured that life is unfair dedicated to defying limits Challenged by rage bloodline ingrained Pulled towards inevitable complete collapse. (Inspired by the promptings of Reena’s […]

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Shame and Weakness

I paint smiles to mask the stench Greed’s perfume triggering an avalanche shame cannot hide the fear, trembles threatening to divulge weakness. (Image by yours truly.)

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Interior Motives

Mother lives in me – her hopes and fears now embodied in my choices, this guilt borne of her suffering… and her mother – who laboured often with unwelcome toil, her only respite widowhood – it’s her legacy I bear. Potential – who once appeared with all the radiant charm of youth, exists within, also, […]

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Artist’s Calling

Spirits dwell in unlikely places, speak to us through lenses their essence embodied in child-like faces, or animal snarls, begging to be freed. I am shamed by my awareness, helpless to intervene, have not perpetrated the original sin – guilty by DNA, lineage tracing back to the slaughterers, those who ravished land and Peoples, disregarded […]

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Tired of Same Old Endings

Tired of same old endings, in which hopes are slaughtered and tragedy and insanity win. Raised by the bottle, learned to set standards low – still afraid of heights – have fallen as the ground beneath my aspirations crumbled – a certainty under alcohol’s rule. Tired of same old endings, in which self is battered […]

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History Lesson

Adolescence holds lessons, I failed to absorb, the leap into adulthood premature. Have a son of my own now, wish to guide him to solace, help him to settle into a place where the sky is prominent, teach him to live without walls, proud and confident but I fear the price is too steep that […]

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