I have tried to be pragmatic, to adopt a religious perspective, even found potential in support, driven myself to make peace be a model for
Old friend, I would visit you but this compulsive state of martyrdom delays our reunion, then you slip my mind. You wouldn’t recognize me –
Reminds me of home – Dad’s drinking, dressing up, keeping up appearances; a woman without a voice, public persona all important: must disguise private hell.
Cruising fills my fantasies – reveling in life, loved ones in tow, prideful, excited – sailing past Mecca, places of service, relinquishing embellishments, fully alive!
Intelligent woman, moderately attractive, seeks insignificant man – expectations minimal, availability unimportant (avoiding commitment) accepts hollow vows. Funny, entertaining – life of the party –