Missing Lessons

No point hanging onto past – education is not preparation when illness decides to drop in neither Algebra, nor Social Science offers clues for solving the equation: Life minus ability equals:  what? Curriculum based on harsh realities would instruct how to tie up loose ends, gather what’s important, remain calm while filling prescriptions and countless […]

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Eccentricity Counts

Professors may make strange bedfellows, but originality does engage young minds; ideology while exciting, repels intuition; and doing well is not about belonging, it is acknowledgment and reward received. Listen to me, I am lost, begging for do-overs. Superiority is a goal for some, while I retreat into leisure, begin losing awareness, am an odd […]

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Always a Teacher

Set me on the open road, encourage me to cross borders; I am hungry for knowledge, to hear a higher calling. Cannot tolerate chained-to- chairs education, imposed immobility, socratic hierarchy demanding conformity spoon-fed compliance – am too much my father’s daughter, born rebellious unable to mold myself to prescribed slots would rather initiate discussion, engage, […]

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Employment Dance

Doors open – build a career, strive for a postion with authority, discover new possibility, relocate, be unique, spontaneous; conned by administration, lack of status verified, excluded by internal friendships, soulless searching for personal wealth. Opportunity to earn – engage business space – have the big reveal, believe boisterous sales pitch, advertise ineffectively, wait on […]

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Learning Disabled

Really want to be gainfully engaged, embrace learning but disability is in charge, like an uneducated thug, skulking behind my back, sneering at my attempts to demonstrate capability. I am slow processing, easily distracted, socially driven, control slipping, botching efforts to show potential, suspect that disability, the hard-headed tough guy that he is, revels in […]

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Women Are Red

Women bleed – red blots in an otherwise black and white world – have learned the language, yet feel like foreigners, undermined by nuances; travel this patriarchal landscape, would-be leaders whose compassion like blood unsettles the ambitious, too exhausted to play the game corporate agendas do not align with weary-hearted mothers who would slow progress […]

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These are Warriors

Younger women than I are giving birth, unaware of indifference; joyous expectancy blotting out smells of disinfectant, and decay – I am invisible to them, my daughters. Babies they are, bringing forth life, unripened souls, hopeful, ignorant, unaware that I know what violations have planted the seeds, am no stranger to the cruelties of humanity, […]

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Strike Out

I would stand on my head, call in the big leagues, imagine fun, opportunity, but constantly meet with the wall of your limitations. My desire is innocent – impish maybe – dependable; hope to create memorable moments, but boredom is oppressive, and you are shutting me out. I am alone here, hoop jumping, giving of […]

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Residential Horrors

This place is both school and residence, where I have come to live and work – ‘Live’ is a stretch – these old walls hold secrets, tension dissuading recreation. The work is meant to be education, but survival seems to be what we are learning, the students and I, shivering in the isolation of this […]

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Casting Call

Anticipation that life will one day recommence – as if a curtain will open and there I’ll be, sitting in the audience, hungrily waiting for the play – has drawn me from my solitude, encouraged. Have a friendly enough disposition, once graced the boards myself – a lifetime ago now – confident in my ability […]

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