Problematic

“You’re an enigma” mother would tsk, ushering me out of the door, brown bag lunch, book bag dragging, to catch a ride across town a special classroom – desks pushed together formed quads, and walls retracted, created one large room, the bustle of activity a constant no readers here, or math sheets, it was free […]

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A Convertible Summer

Summer of ‘67 the British had invaded and Canada celebrated 100 years of confederation – and Dad, at the top of his game, came home with a brand new, powder puff blue convertible Eagerly, my sister and I loaded into the back seat, laughed at strands of our long hair flying into open mouths, strains […]

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Snapdragons

Snapdragons transport me back to father’s gardens – the pleasure of pinching delicate flower mouths forbidden as I was, tiny feet banished from tiers of ordered colours, how he worshipped those rows hours spent on knees, as if in prayer, attention lavished on nurturing growth while I shrivelled at the sidelines, longed to dig beside […]

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The Pen Is To Blame

This is pen is far too vociferous, illuminates the disabled rage, dismissing my concerns, as if outgoing messages are company for its dispassionate agenda. No privacy for ailing, sleeping, I would physically eject the offending appendage, but cannot bear reopening of wounds, recognizing the sins are mine, no matter how unintentional. Words can be a […]

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Sleeping Alone

Sleeping alone – so intrusive – a child born of so many intentions awash in a trail of barricades I cope, cook up breezes, strike wet ground, stuff myself to satiate the onslaught ground rapidly shifting – Earth Mother exerting presence – too stubborn, I turn away Look for God, but my cup keeps moving […]

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Age and Obstacles

Sloth-like she shuffles each stride an argument against unwilling muscles, ignores spasms, lips pursed in concentration, advances Cockeyed he totters, step…hop…step, poker-hot stabs punctuating his effort moves swiftly as if to out run pain, face set in determination They are out of sync, oddball awkward sightseers, obstacles for the fast-moving able-bodies that whir past unable […]

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Nested

Nestled in with childhood truths – second-hand, missing perspective – nursing a creeping creativity: insignificant clarity expanding measurably, hurried. Once social, now retreating papered over failure, have fallen frigid waves infiltrating, overtaking chronically pained, over and over contemplating flight, freedom voiceless, expressionless, flat even revelation muted, unmoving boundaries, discussed, protective currently crumbling…underestimated the struggle, the […]

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Haunting Irony

You come to me in the Dreamtime slipping between the veil of what is and what shall never be, stirring my restlessness, a bittersweet reminder of love once cherished, yet shunned. You are a ghost shattering illusions of sleep, thrusting me into lucidity, regrets real – I want to hold you to me for eternity, […]

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Shadows Echo

Reminds me of home – Dad’s drinking, dressing up, keeping up appearances; a woman without a voice, public persona all important: must disguise private hell. Daddy was driven by money and compulsions; could not see desperation in our eyes, we were running away, seeking our own solace in forbidden places, hell’s legacy. An overboard existence […]

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