It wasn’t the knowledge of stability – chaos had the upper hand back then. It wasn’t even that love was expressed – unconditional an unheard of concept
It was an unspoken presence the reassurance of rocks the irrepressible allure of a freshwater stream
How a child’s heart found encouragement in the whispering wind solace in the arbored shelter
Naturally the din of home life overpowered this self-assured passage, disrupted kinship and shattered childish faith
But all that is behind now and when I clear cluttering thoughts, disperse static emotions, quiet the heart
The rhythms are still there – presence offering sustenance…
(Poem first appeared here, January, 2021. Image my own)
The Great Blue heron declares me an annoyance to which the Blue Jays rasp accordance – I know I am akin to predator but I come here with need to this bug-infested weed-ridden riverbed
To be
Torn as I am by an undefinable rustle, an inner bleed that craves patterns, or signs naturally occurring rhythms to define my place within this current worldly disorder
Restlessness accompanies me on this sojourn today – unfazed by ripe red belly of robin, or shimmering emerald of breeding merganser’s crown.
My lens seeks out decay – rotting wood, darkened cavities, as if my soul craves reassurance that life persists even where death hovers – I need a sign
Discontent, I move on- drive the river road snail’s pace – praying for something to shake this malaise – birds come and go, trees radiate Spring green, I pause, unmoved.
And then I spot it, across the river, up high, a massive hulk; lens raises, adjusts, snaps, the regal hunter turns toward me regards me with ferocious intensity, does not falter on his perch –
All-seeing, fearless, he is spirit-manifested, a messenger, lifting me from stagnation – momentary redemption.
(Needing a Sign first appeared here, May 2019. Image my own.)