I know a little girl, whose hair in ringlets falls, unkempt from lack of brushing; who stands when she should be sitting; who laughs with defiance when challenged, her dark eyes gleaming with mischief; who holds her chin up high and stamps her feet, arms folded in protest when she does not get her way.
I see that little girl, have watched her play, with a wild imagination, and a fearless temperament; have watched her climb a tree, scrap with any bully, and dare to venture on her own; have witnessed her alone times, hidden and obscured, watched as she cried unheeded, buried herself in books, drawing, and future dreams.
I feel that little girl, who wears such a brave exterior to mask her inner fears; who bears a burden of responsibility to carry the weight of those around her; who believes she has the power to make her mother cry, to cause her father’s violence, to save her sisters from pain; who feels the punishment of her situation and ascribes it to unworthiness.
I love that little girl, whose mind is always churning, who prays to a god she’s never seen, and makes wishes on rainbows; who longs to make a difference, and refuses to believe that suffering is all there is; who devotes herself to being a better person, and hopes one day that she’ll finally feel at peace in the world.
I hold that little girl, warm within my heart, listen to her fears, hear her heart’s longing; praise her courageous efforts, appease her doubts, offer condolences for losses, encouragement for change, forgive her of her burdens; allay her misperceptions, reassure her worth, promise to never let her go: she is me.