Went for a walk today –
pushed my chariot out the door,
faltered after it and set out –
a beautiful, sun-blessed day!
It was an act of independence –
defying shooting pain in shins,
a groaning hip, an obstinately
bent spine – Carpe Diem, said I.
Two houses, three, I smiled
at passersby – “Beautiful day!”
our celebratory chorus – three,
four houses, freedom mine.
Five, six – I could see the corner
shops – half a block away – why
I bought this house – everything
close – until fated out of reach.
Then I felt it – that indescribable
shift in my spine, a warning –
shut down imminent – retreat!
Confidence melted into panic.
Now steps became a shuffle,
each foot dragged forward,
back curving in on itself, will
on full throttle – get me home.
Two houses more – you can
do it – husband stands at door
telling me to take my time –
No! No! Time is running out!
I stumble inside – find comfort
in the familiarity of my bed
think about giving into tears
then remember – the sun’s rays
generously washing over pale
housebound skin, the smell of
autumn, just before the cold –
a rare mid-November warmth
and I smile – a victorious,
proud recognition of how,
Nature offered a rare gift –
and I, for once, partook of it.