I fear illness. I grew up in a household where dis-ease was the norm. My mother had her first dance with death as a child, then suffered a broken back in her late thirties, followed by three bouts of cancer. In her elder years, she lives with constant pain and many health issues. My oldest sister had congenital heart problems all her life, and at the end, leukemia. The next sister has schizophrenia and now Parkinson’s. Diabetes, heart problems, and cancer run rampant in my mother’s family. Ten of my generation have died. My father and his siblings all died from respiratory conditions.
In other words, genetically, the promise of a long, healthy lifespan is not very bright. When disease first knocked on my door, I made drastic changes to my diet, but I wonder if it is enough.
Fear, I know, can be a self-fulfilling habit. But how do I let it go?
Years ago, I heard about a prayer for overcoming obstacles in life. It goes like this:
I cast this burden of ___________ upon the Christ within, that I may be free to ___________________ .
In my case: I cast this burden of fear upon the Christ within, that I may be free to enjoy my gift of health.
What fear gets in your way?