It’s not like I didn’t know
that life is tenuous
and death a given
I chose to ignore the signs –
seems that which we avoid
has a way of catching up
I pin-balled my way
searching for something
undefinable
A break from responsibility?
a Saviour?
Condemned myself as failure
Sentenced to a lifetime
of love lacking
How does one traverse such margins?
Re-engage in the face of rejection?
I have pen,
and thoughts,
and maybe
if I bleed enough,
the path will be revealed.
(Image my own)
One Woman's Quest 
“I have pen,
and thoughts,
and maybe
if I bleed enough,
the path will be revealed.”
This stanza is now ingrained on my brain. I might not have the answers, but we can all hope to find that path.
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We have to keep hoping. Thanks
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Oh, I “feel” this piece deeply, VJ! Don’t have the answer though. And honestly, don’t know if I ever will. But I think the closest I can come to what “it” is, safety and freedom felt at the same time. ❤ May we experience it. These lines are my favorite:I pin-balled my waysearching for somethingundefinable
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You do get it. Thanks.
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You’re welcome! ((hugs))
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oh those last lines tell it all. Great truths, V.J. 💓
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Thank you, Cindy
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A definition of tenuous
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It’s often very revealing, those words and images that come out of our pens. (K)
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It sure is. Thank you, K
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I too use my pen to help me through. Very nice!
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It’s a good conduit. Thanks
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Very poignant poetry
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Thanks
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You’re very welcome
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I loved ‘pinballed my way’. I think that is an image for life many can relate to. hnb
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hnb was my cat’s contribution as I hauled him off the computer!
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Lol. Appreciate any contribution.
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Thanks Heather
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once we found a way, for everything that’s lokced up inside too long, then, we will, find that, sense of release, that, brand new feel of, freedom. But it’s not easy to reach this “place”…
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You’re right. It takes work.
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I love that line about pin-balling your way. Having played a lot of pinball in my youth, that line makes so much sense. It can be a little tiring, no?
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to find purpose, this certainly deserves a written query
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That last stanza is very effective.
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