Return to Center

Centred, I project merit
directed by routines
grief securely stored

Anxiety, not so compartmentalized
reveals that I am outsider, pliable,
pursues a validating response.

Perfectionism despises vulnerability
balance embraces contradictions
complexity overwhelms – I breath.

(Image from personal collection.)

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VJ

Permission to write, paint, and imagine are the gifts I gave myself when chronic illness hit - a fair exchange: being for doing. Relevance is an attitude. Humour essential. View all posts by VJ

22 thoughts on “Return to Center”

Gina says:

March 17, 2020 at 9:03 am

yes that line resonated with me too V.J, projecting merit, giving credit before a task, positive and empowering

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1. V.J. Knutson says:
  
  March 17, 2020 at 12:08 pm
  
  Thanks Gina!
  
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jmankowsky says:

March 13, 2020 at 6:22 pm

“I project merit”….just love that line. How many of us do that on a daily basis!

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1. V.J. Knutson says:
  
  March 14, 2020 at 8:16 am
  
  Thanks for your thoughtful feedback.
  
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-Eugenia says:

March 13, 2020 at 9:31 am

So true, V.J. I can relate!

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1. V.J. Knutson says:
  
  March 13, 2020 at 12:18 pm
  
  Thanks.
  
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  1. -Eugenia says:
    
    March 14, 2020 at 1:15 pm
    
    Welcome.
    
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Liz Gauffreau says:

March 12, 2020 at 6:09 pm

That anxiety tends to get the better of me, too. Your poem expresses this state very well–and the need to just come back to myself and breathe.

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1. sgeoil says:
  
  March 12, 2020 at 7:34 pm
  
  Yes…me too.
  
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2. V.J. Knutson says:
  
  March 12, 2020 at 8:01 pm
  
  Thanks Liz. Breathing consciously does a lot.
  
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  1. Liz Gauffreau says:
    
    March 13, 2020 at 7:21 am
    
    Yes, it does. It took me a while to learn that.
    
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eurobrat says:

March 12, 2020 at 5:39 pm

So many of us can relate to this…thank you for writing!

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1. V.J. Knutson says:
  
  March 12, 2020 at 8:00 pm
  
  Appreciate your comments. Thanks for dropping by.
  
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Ladysag77 says:

March 12, 2020 at 12:39 pm

This is exactly where I am at these days. Beautiful. Truth. I love this😊❤

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1. V.J. Knutson says:
  
  March 12, 2020 at 2:19 pm
  
  Thanks so much. I appreciate it!
  
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oneletterup says:

March 12, 2020 at 10:33 am

The perfectionism line also reached out and grabbed me. So well crafted.

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1. V.J. Knutson says:
  
  March 12, 2020 at 11:15 am
  
  Thank you!
  
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  1. oneletterup says:
    
    March 12, 2020 at 1:22 pm
    
    You’re welcome.
    
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Deborah says:

March 12, 2020 at 7:38 am

What truth you have written! I especially love these 2 lines: Perfectionism despises vulnerability
balance embraces contradictions. So true! Really well penned my friend! ❤

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1. V.J. Knutson says:
  
  March 12, 2020 at 7:40 am
  
  Thanks Deborah. Always trying to get ahold of myself, lol.
  
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  1. Deborah says:
    
    March 12, 2020 at 7:41 am
    
    That makes two of us! LOL! 😀
    
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