Depression monitors my movements
eyes me from across the road, waits
I struggle to define myself, here
at the margins of life, career lost
As teacher, days were outlined
bells, rubrics, and semesters
Now I must learn again, find
purpose in nothingness
Despair wants to move in, overwhelm
But I’m building my fences, regaining
routines – markers motivating
each day – a reason for being.
(This poem is a response to my weekly challenge: define but don’t reveal. Image my own.)
I’m intrigued by depression being outside of the body at the beginning here. Fantastic work throughout!
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It never moves too far away, lol. I’m just getting better at recognizing it’s advance.
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I understand completely.
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👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻
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Thanks!
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Your poem expresses the feeling of needing to be vigilant against depression very well. It is such an insidious thing, sneaking back in without our even being aware that it’s happening.
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It really is. Especially when it is in response to a loss or other circumstance over which we have no control. Might as well put out a big welcome, open for business sign, lol.
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You’re right. Loss and impotent rage are an open invitation to depression.
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Churchill used to say he had the black dogs circling. I hope you can shut the door, slam it shut and don’t let your black depression dogs come in.
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Thanks Anne!
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“…eyes me from across the road, waits” It is difficult to go through.
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It is. Thanks Amy
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The framework fits overcoming all loss. Very well scribed!
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Thanks Heather.
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You’re welcome.
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Superbly evoked
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Thanks!
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Its so hard for people to understand depression. I think you have given them an accurate description here that they might understand 😢
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Thanks Christine
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Excellent! My depression eyes me from across the room, and its a very small room. Have a fantastic day!
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I’ve evicted mine few times. Thanks Mike.
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