Chill and fog
cloud my senses –
effective distraction
loneliness holds no sway.
Others speed past,
while I advance,
slow, steady –
drawn by an unknown
Presence, who may
or may not receive me well
at this road’s end
I cannot tell.
Pray indifference
does not await me –
have suffered enough
no stomach for more.
Must stop a moment
and rest…darkness
brings its own brand
of cold… I am weary.
Tomorrow,
I’ll begin anew,
perhaps not so alone,
But loved ones
are preoccupied
others long gone
So the task remains
mine singularly
to further this journey
With faith to carry me
and a prayer for clear
passage to see me through.
(Image from personal collection.)
It’s the loved ones gone that is hardest to bear.
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Yes. So many losses.
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This easily has to be the hardest part of aging.
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Agreed
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It’s not our destination but the journey along the way. Let marmalade sunshine burn through the chill and fog. ๐ป ๐
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What a lovely thought. Thanks Eugenia.
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You’re welcome!
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Sounds a daunting, but necessary journey V.J. They do say its all about the journey and not the destination so I hope you enjoy! ๐๐
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Thanks Christine. They also say that at some point we are all alone.
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Aaah..your words and picture both are beautiful! The older I get, the more indifferent I become. Not that I stop caring but stop caring about what others think, itโs liberating. But yes, solo walking does get lonely sometimes.
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We hope for a good balance, I think. Thanks for reading.
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In a sense, we create our solo-ness (and everything we experience) but how true this rings with me:
“Tomorrow,
Iโll begin anew,
perhaps not so alone”
There are parts of me on a highly solo trek … other parts all wrapped up in husband/kids/friends … I sometimes wish I could share my solo times, but I’m unwilling to let others set those agendas, hence I continue, each day re-choosing to continue solo, making my own choices, free to change my own choices …
You’ve captured the bluesy edge between precious solitude and too-much solitude.
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“bluesy edge” – love that! Thanks Jazz. It is a dance.
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Faith is good but a limo is better. ๐
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Oh, yes! I’d much prefer a limo, lol.
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I right there with you on all that you said! Incredibly penned! โค
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Thanks so much. I think many of us (of a certain age) can relate.
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Indeed we can.
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