Desiring reconnection with life,
a longing for purposeful normalcy,
I push forward, intentionally ignoring
advice to the contrary.
Original intention well-meaning
(but not thought through)
minimal exertion is what’s called for,
but I feel inspired to do more.
Former strength now lost,
new awareness on the periphery,
hindered only by this cloudy head-
executive functioning currently disabled.
Bottom line is I must come clean,
stop overstating my capacity,
accept the unpredictable,
and recognize my limitations.
Embrace the lesson of constraints
and stop sabotaging the journey.
I am what I am, not a former definition
based on a life now redundant.
Naked, I fear that someone will see me –
I fear that they will not see me –
desire for acknowledgment,
a very human condition.
I need to ignore the obstacles,
wholeheartedly, without compromise,
reveal myself – no longer hidden.
I am, after all, what I am.