My memory of you –
distorted by childish exuberance-
distant and disinterested
Translated vacant eyes
through the lens of my needs
child that I was.
Failed to notice
the aura of defeat,
the battered heart
the robotic responses
masking unbelievable sorrow
missed it all
Till death knocked
and I saw you anew –
adult lenses now fully secured.
Wonder at the fortitude
that kept you upright
the love that served us both.
No fault here –
on either side –
just a bittersweet understanding.
(Distorted Lenses first appeared here August, 2019. Image my own)
Haunting, yet rich and deep.
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Thanks Mark
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You always put in words feelings that are difficult to explain. Beautiful, relatable and bittersweet.
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Thanks so much
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I like this very much, particularly coming to a bittersweet understanding and letting go of blame.
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Letting go of the blame is so healing. Thanks Liz.
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You’re welcome, VJ. It sure is.
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Brilliant. I have been away for a bit and so it’s lovely to return to hear your important words. Thank you:).
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Thanks so much Janet.
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The ever present reality, and painful experience. It is said that we must come to terms with death, but as your poem reminds me, we have to acknowledge it, see it, know it to do so.
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Indeed. Thanks
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Truth.
Hindsight is a sometimes brutal, inescapable teacher.
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Brutal is a good work. Thanks.
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I think this is a very relatable poem for so many.
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I am sure. Thanks Heather
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Welcome.
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How true this is. The understanding that comes with age often comes too late.
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Ah life! Thanks Sadje
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You’re welcome
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