Found an old diary –
days when I painted myself white,
prayed to angels, believed God
cared about personal forever after –
painted myself pathetic.
Took me back –
days when I painted myself pink,
altruistic heart committed to indifference,
yearned for the unrequited, sacrificed –
painted myself foolish.
Read between the lines –
days when I painted myself yellow,
so desperately co-dependent,
projected sunshine, risked it all –
painted myself delusional.
Wonder that I’d survived –
painted myself broken,
found strength, moved on,
made better choices –
painted myself indigo.
(Self Portrait in Colours originally appeared here in August of 2016. Edited.