Words are not my own
wits hapless
That rendezvous
with the devil
sealed it –
Free will for love
I’d bargained
Ache of loneliness
too much to bear –
Now I’m just a puppet
ventriloquist’s dummy
Ask a question
watch him work my strings.
(Image my own.)
Hmm. I know that control is real. Experienced it with a former spouse. I have been listening to podcasts on abusive relationships and relating them to my own mother’s experience. She married a man so controlling, she had no voice of her own.
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Your comment replies contradict the poem! Perhaps control is an illusion.
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So powerful I felt it in my core!
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Thanks.
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My pleasure.
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Very sad. I am thankful I have never felt this kind of despair. You words really make me stop and think.
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Thanks Heather. Coercive control is the new term for it, I believe. Tragic really.
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Yes, it is tragic. Human nature has such a cruel side.
You are welcome.
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That’s quite powerful! 🙂 ❤
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Thanks Deborah.
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Aww, this feels so sad and terrible. I had to read this twice and on the second time it really hit me hard. I felt every word and pain, it feels awful. Thank you for sharing this unique and very deep and full of emotions post. Wow!
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Thank you for taking time to read and commenting. Domestic abuse is not always just physical.
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Thank you for providing me with knowledge, it can be psychological, emotional and can include neglect. abuse is horrible and I wish for no-one to experience it.
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Oh, that’s a terrible place to be.
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Indeed it is. Not where I am, I might add. Poetic license. Although, I wonder where these things derive from…and think of my parents.
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It’s interesting that you mention poetic license. I remember being taught way back in the ninth grade not to assume that the speaker of the poem is the poet or that the content of the poem is autobiographical. But of course, it’s never that simple, is it?
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Yes. There is a difference between narrative voice and author for sure.
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