A single tear –
white-hot acid
announces self pity –
abhorrent emotion –
mid-day, body crashed,
I am foul-minded, drag-down
unreasonable – spiteful
shut my eyes against
a world of able-bodies
immune to the struggle
loathe this weakness,
this intolerable disconnect –
body, mind detached from will
futility reality’s wall –
could cry – will not cry –
this day is not done.
Later, tasks accomplished
I pushed through –
I sleep, awaken to nightfall
Soft pinks and blues
in a cottony sky greet me –
beauty offering serenity
and for a brief moment,
a tinge of admiration surfaces
for the woman who survived this day.
(Mish is hosting at dVerse tonight and challenges us to find beauty in something we consider ugly.)
For me, when I can’t imagine making it through the day, my release is the beauty that night brings. Lovely, VJ.
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Thanks. There is relief in the night.
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Thank you for revealing this unbridled beauty. “body, mind. Detached from will.” Yet you live, and create.
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Yes – it is not a constant state, but definitely a phenomena of the limits of this illness. Thank you so for your kind words.
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Cheers to you! Love the colors of the cottony sky and your perseverance to make it through.
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Thank you, Grace.
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Wow you really described a struggle that many have. Sometimes it is so darn hard to make it through the day but, as you say, nature provides its reward and reminds you that you succeeded. I loved this! 🙂
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Thanks, Christine.
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This especially struck me…”this intolerable disconnect –
body, mind detached from will”
I can only imagine the frustration. So glad you found beauty in your own strength. The sunset was just for you.
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Thanks Mish.
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Nice line: “beauty offering serenity” Beauty and serenity go together.
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They do! Thanks Frank.
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Oh going through a day like that and knowing that you made it through to meed a fresh morning… that is beauty
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Yes, there is beauty in that. Thanks Björn.
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My ENORMOUS admiration goes out for the woman who survived this day — and who finds the strength to continue pushing through with each new day.
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Thank you, Heide. You are so sweet. Hope you are having a good day.
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Wonderful day over here, thank you, V.J.! And i meant every word … i do think you’re amazing. xo
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Right back at you!
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❤️
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Very nice the transition of one’s own ugly mood into the beauty of positive accomplishment and pleasure at the turn around.
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Thanks so much.
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kaykuala
and for a brief moment,
a tinge of admiration surfaces
for the woman who survived this day.
The strength of purpose befitting hat of a lady even briefly is worth a wisdom. Beautiful write VJ
Hank
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Thanks Hank.
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This was powerful and inspirational ❤️❤️❤️
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Thanks so much, Sue.
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You’ve penned the frustration…those feelings so well….and then the respite, the relief, the softness to our feelings and judgement that can come from a look into a beautiful sunset. Well done!
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Thanks Lillian.
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Aging, sickness, loss of energy….I am beginning to enter all of it, and I see it as disgusting so often. I work with elderly and am always telling them their weakness is beautiful. Wow, why don’t we see it in ourselves? Too close! I love your line, “beauty offering serenity”.
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Exactly – we need to learn to accept in ourselves what we do in others. Not geared that way, I guess. Thanks Mary, and sorry to hear you are going down this path.
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the struggle and anguish gives birth to a resilient woman V.J and that is her beauty – in my eyes – well done!!
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Bless you Gina and ironically that is the name of today’s post: Resilience.
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oh serendipity then! my favourite…i seldom get to use it.
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I know that feeling, V.J. I love the final stanzas give hope.
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Have to keep hope flowing. Thanks Kim
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Ahhhhh. That gentle yet heartwrenching flow. Then the freedom. The release. So good.
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Thanks so much
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You’re welcome, Ma’am!
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vj, wonderful! As always! You never fail to keep me on the edge of my seat with your words! xx
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So kind of you to say so
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Beautiful. Simply beautiful. 💕
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Thank you
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You are welcome.
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Great job on building the anguish and shifting to calm reflection! You definitely found the beauty!
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I did. Thanks
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