Perception Softens

A single tear –
white-hot acid
announces self pity –
abhorrent emotion –

mid-day, body crashed,
I am foul-minded, drag-down
unreasonable – spiteful

shut my eyes against
a world of able-bodies
immune to the struggle

loathe this weakness,
this intolerable disconnect –
body, mind detached from will

futility reality’s wall –
could cry – will not cry –
this day is not done.

Later, tasks accomplished
I pushed through –
I sleep, awaken to nightfall

Soft pinks and blues
in a cottony sky greet me –
beauty offering serenity

and for a brief moment,
a tinge of admiration surfaces
for the woman who survived this day.

(Mish is hosting at dVerse tonight and challenges us to find beauty in something we consider ugly.)

 

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44 comments

  1. Aging, sickness, loss of energy….I am beginning to enter all of it, and I see it as disgusting so often. I work with elderly and am always telling them their weakness is beautiful. Wow, why don’t we see it in ourselves? Too close! I love your line, “beauty offering serenity”.

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  2. You’ve penned the frustration…those feelings so well….and then the respite, the relief, the softness to our feelings and judgement that can come from a look into a beautiful sunset. Well done!

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  3. kaykuala

    and for a brief moment,
    a tinge of admiration surfaces
    for the woman who survived this day.

    The strength of purpose befitting hat of a lady even briefly is worth a wisdom. Beautiful write VJ

    Hank

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  4. This especially struck me…”this intolerable disconnect –
    body, mind detached from will”
    I can only imagine the frustration. So glad you found beauty in your own strength. The sunset was just for you.

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