The thoughts inside my head are debilitating right now, paralyzing me. There is no silence, only a constant swirling of I should, what if, how, why, and don’t forget to…….
There is no progress amidst all this noise. Life is too in my face at the moment, and I feel like I can’t breathe.
I used to know how to do this: feet on the floor, breathe deeply.
A vision of my husband, recovering from yet another surgery floats into my mind, and with it emotional panic. I can’t help him like this, I remind myself.
And breathe again.
The clutter of the house closes in around me. I have let things go.
The more the mind races, the less you get done…..I know, I know…..
Breathe. Find your quiet place. Let the extraneous go, for this moment, in this moment. Breathe.
My chest expands, pushing through the tightness that has resided there these past months. I follow the breath deeper, into my belly, reconnect with my core strength. Surrender to stillness….
The sound of my breath, my heart beating, and the safety of a vast inner nothingness…..