My son used to burn himself
press the lit end of a cigarette
against his bare flesh
an attempt to penetrate
the numbness –
this I know
because I did it too
walking barefoot in the snow
cutting till blood oozed
there is a pain
familiar to adolescents
that bears no explanation
a hellish limbo –
suspended between innocence
and adult expectations
unable to articulate
the wrongs endured
or separate shame
from responsibility,
an inexplicable grief
and longing…
…longing to understand
at least for a moment
the pain one dare not feel.
(Image my own)
wonderful insights VJ so relatable and luckily we grow and find better ways for expression. 💖
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Thank goodness for that. Thanks Cindy!
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Absolutely!
Always! 💕
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Thanks for sharing
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Thanks for this poem..I know you went through pain.
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😊😘
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‘suspended between innocence and adult expectation’. In those words lies the key……always expectations…Thank you for waking my mind today…
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😊
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Very powerful VJ, I felt your pain and the sadness that must come with watching it happen to those you love.
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Powerful and moving ❤️
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Hoy precisamente en las noticias hablaban del daño que se infringen los adolescentes. Se hablaba…, de la cantidad de suicidios o intentos de suicidio. Algo ocurre en la sociedad que nos impide arreglar este problema. ¿ Será culpa de nosotros, que, somos padres o es culpable el sistema que nos venden a través del control que tienen las imágenes que nos muestran en las noticias o tantas sonrisas falsas? Quizás, venden falsos cielos que, no todos alcanzan.
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These sorts of physical injuries we inflict on ourselves, are usually a cry for help, it’s our way of calling for help, using the only ways we knew how…
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🪷🌼🌹🌺🌻🌷🏵️💐🌸
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This is so heartfelt and moving VJ.. 😢👏👏💕
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This is something that I can not understand because I have not experienced it. But it doesn’t mean that I don’t care about those who have. I am so sorry for your pain, VJ. Very heart felt words.
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Well, this sure hit hard! But your poem perfectly captured the anguish I still am unable to write adequately about (re a granddaughter cutting mercilessly plus deciding she’s better off as a male). Thank you for this, VJ – your understanding of this phenomenon is a balm to we readers and surely, those in your family too.
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This on cut right to the heart, VJ. It is sad that the pain is so great that this is the only way to feel!
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I could feel your pain……
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Thank you
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The pain, the strain, witout foreseeable gain, who’ll stop the rain …
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Something like that yes.
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As reflected in the book title of Australian author Ruby Roberts … “Each sorrow has its meaning”. Scars symbolise healing. Sending you sunshine.
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Thank you!
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A close friend also struggled with injuring herself. Now she has recovered but the scars are still there.
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That is what triggered this poem for me – a scar.
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And you seemed to be doing so well VJ. Where are the rainbows and unicorns!!!???
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Now Mike, you should know by now that I never was a rainbow and unicorn gal.
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I did not know that, but I do know that one day none of this will matter. In fact, none of it matters to anyone but ourselves.
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I was very moved by your reading.
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Thanks Liz.
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You’re welcome, VJ.
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