Devil borrows
Twilight’s voice
tortures sensibility
Tangled bedclothes
grumble, inflexible
bedmates – unsupportive
Where is reason?
my mind wails
heart drumming discord
I access light,
perch on edge of bed
will myself to breathe
(My dear husband is in hospital again, his fifth surgery to reconstruct his knee. It’s been a long ordeal and my heart bleeds for him. Fear is an awful bedmate. I submit this poem in response to the promptings of Eugi’s Weekly prompt: twilight and Reena’s Xploration challenge: devil. Image my own.)
Sending u healing …. Love what you write
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Appreciate you taking time to read and comment.
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I love your work…. I am also a writer and I know we bleed on paper….so as a community of those who pour in paper for people to read…our duty is to support each other …but ur work is genuinely worth appreciation….u inspire me….
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Thanks. I’m following you now.
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‘Fear is an awful bedmate.’ so true.
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Indeed. Thanks.
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Hope all is well and sending much healing ❤️🩹
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Thanks
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Oh no, I am so sorry to hear this. Five times. Your poem captures the intensity of what must be a constant presence of fear hanging over…everything. That fear of the unknown, the what-ifs, the helplessness. I hope writing helps you get through the day. Sending you positive energy. Take care of you too.
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Sending you some rest and him some healing vibes VJ ❤
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Thanks so much. Just what we need.
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Well wishes for you and your husband, VJ! I hope the poem proved therapeutic. :-).
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Thanks.
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Will myself to breathe, a precipice, needing to push breath, this is tense, powerful, but also awful in the real moment.
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thanks Paul.
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Most welcome VJ
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This line “I access light, perch on edge of bed,will myself to breathe” speaks of hope and can feel your pain. I was in that place at several times with chronic illness tag, Stay strong and safe. Sending virtual hugs to you. Wish your husband a speedy recovery. Take care
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Thank you for your understanding and good wishes.
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Its so stressful when a loved one is suffering.. My Mums second knee replacement went horribly wrong in 2013 so I have a little idea of how you may be feeling. I hope peace comes again to you soon and you find some ways to self calm. ❤
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Thank you. Did she eventually get it worked out?
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Sadly it affected her health for the rest of her life, she had an embolism during the procedure, for some reason her silly GP advised she travel to another town to have it. something went wrong, to be honest the complications just kept piling up and then she had falls.. but there was a lot more stress she was going through following it too.. so just make sure your husband takes good care of himself.. ❤
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This is our nightmare. He was falling too. I just received word they are sending him to rehab rather than home. That gives me hope.
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I will say dome prayers VJ. Mum.had minimal support we two sisters who were functioning tried but we all had emotional neglect. I am sure it will go better for your hubby. Praying for you both.
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Thank you!
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What a wonderful poem.
I’m sorry to hear about your husband, it’s hard to watch someone you love suffer..
Prayers to you both! 💕
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Thank you, Sheri
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Of course, you’re very welcome.🌹
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Fear is an awful bedmate. Hope your husband feels better sooner. Lots of positivity your way.
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Thanks so much.
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🙂 🙂
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Very scary when the body refuses to heal. All one can do is pray for better days/nights and distract oneself while waiting for hopefully good news. Take care, V.J.
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You know it well. Thanks Olga.
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So hard when fear grips us at night, and then so often seems less threatening in the morning. And then there are times it seems to never leave. Prayers that your husband recovers soon with no more need for surgeries, and that you will feel at peace 🙏
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Thanks Lisa. Sadly, he still needs a replacement on his other knee – if this one would only behave itself.
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oh no 😢 Every now and then I get some knee pain, it is not good!
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“Fear is an awful bedmate” – can resonate with this in so many ways so thank you for offering your introspect as well as your personal thoughts. I give strength and resilience to you and yours
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Thanks so much.
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So sorry about your husband. You are both in my thoughts. -Julie
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Thanks Julie
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So sorry to hear of your husband’s plight. I hope that writing your wonderful poems provides some distraction as you wait, and wait, and wait… Hang in there girlfriend.
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Thanks LuAnne. What else can we do, eh?
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So sorry V.J. it has been a long road for you both. Uncertainty – so well expressed in your poem.
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It’s been so long. Sadly, he was gaining strength and seemed to be on the mend and in a day it all changed. Ugh. He still has to have his other knee done if this one will ever heal.
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It’s terrible how things can change so quickly! Sending positive healing vibes!
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Excellent work, if I may say so. The dark of night, especially when alone, can be devilishly fearful. I’m sorry to read of your husband’s need for surgeries and the stays in the hospital. I can only hope and pray that there is practical healing in the reconstructive work. And I hope and pray for peace for both of you.
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Thank you so much.
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My love to both you and Ric, VJ – fear a sly fox, sneaking in at such opportunities – calling it out poetically is good counter-force. Bravo for your clarity.
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Thanks Jazz. I have to catch myself or there will be no rest.
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Beautiful read
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Thank you.
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Hope all goes well with the operation. Fifth time is the charm?
Hang in there V. J.
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Sure hope so. Thanks Betty.
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Reblogged this on Reena Saxena.
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I hope and pray he recovers fully after this surgery. If you can ‘will yourself to breathe’, imagine him with a ‘will to walk’ back into your home and bed.
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I hope so too, Reena. He is strong minded, my husband, so it should work, lol.
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Sending healing thoughts to your husband and strength to you, VJ.
Your poem so uniquely describes a restless mind meeting the twilight.
So good!
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Thanks Michele. What would we do without poetry to cleanse the angst?
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My pleasure. 💐 So true. Sharing some toe tapping instead of word arranging for my post yesterday was fun, but now I need to sit down and write and let some things out. 🙏🏼
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I’m so sorry to hear that Ric has to undergo another surgery. My heart goes out to you both.
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Thanks Liz. With the infection still lingering in his system, it is unnerving.
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You’re welcome, VJ. I’ll keep you and Ric in my thoughts.
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I hope it all goes well. Lots of prayers for him and you. Take care.
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Thanks Sadje
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Sorry to hear that VJ, maybe next time you can just slap him instead of another kneecapping.
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Hahaha. Do you know my husband? Sounds exactly like something he’d say.
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I was reading between the lines.
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Well said! I hope things go better with your husband’s knee this time, VJ, wishing you both the best.
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I hope so too. Thanks.
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Sending prayers and love your way! 🙂 ❤
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Thanks Deborah
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VJ, my best wishes, fear as a bedmate, you have a gift of roping feelings into words. God bless..🙂
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Thank you. I appreciate it.
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Oh, VJ, I am so sorry to hear about your husband. I was so hoping he was on this way to recovery. I agree fear is an awful bedmate. Sending blessings and hugs!
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Thanks Eugi. A frustrating time for him.
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VJ, sending you virtual hugs. I do hope Ric recovers soon and well.
I couldn’t agree more…fear is the worst bedmate.
Beautifully expressed though.
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Thanks so much.
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You are welcome.
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Very best wishes to you both 💚
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Thank you 🙏
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