Thrum-thrum-thrum –
I awaken with a start –
heart pounding,
intense heat stifling –
flames shooting
ceiling high form
a ring around my bed,
as if dancing –
I am frozen, mute.
Is this death?
Distorted faces
leer through fiery curls –
like ancient tribal masks –
menacing, angry
the distinct sound of voices
penetrates the fire’s roar
and too frightened to respond,
I succumb to unconsciousness.
A hallucination, the doctor deduces –
an adolescent’s overactive imagination…
till, child no more, I gather
with other women,
and a drum –
thrum-thrum-thrum
and darkness pulls me back –
to the centre of the ring –
flames, and faces, and voices
only now, I am no longer afraid –
release my soul to the dance.
(Written for the dVerse pub where Victoria is hosting with the prompt: fire.)
There is such a surreal feeling to this. I got this image of a Rousseau painting in my head, and I thought of Joni Mitchell’s The Jungle Line. That dream/nightmare/hallucination/vision sounds so intense, but I like that there is release at the end.
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Thanks. Surreal is a good word
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Yes, “release my soul to the dance.” I love the inclusion of drum sounds.
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Thanks
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I think we need to let loose to those dreams every once in a while… we can be tied down by wishes, and we need to let go sometimes to be free.
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Yes, you are very right.
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Oooh! I like this a lot. Like a drum circle blurring the lines of reality and the surreal. Nicely done!
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Exactly- thanks
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This takes you on a mystical journey- I love the crossover between what’s real and what isn’t.
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Thanks
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I like how the last two lines suggest that not being afraid allows one to dance.
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Good way to look at it- thanks
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Loved the persussive nature of this VJ…
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Thanks Rob
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Hallucinations can be very scary!
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Yes!
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I love the imagery – dreams from childhood can be so intense. And remembered for decades. Perhaps the fine line between dream and nightmare becomes blurred as time goes on.
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Adolescence was a difficult time…thanks
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For a moment there, I thought you were in Paradise. I guess you were at the end!
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Haha…sort of…
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Parents (doctors) are too quick to smooth over a child’s inner encounters in our culture. In this preview of something
to come later in life (perhaps a memory of something from a prior life?), neither child nor parents had any way to relate. Ditto what Brendan says. I trust every dream to be for my best – even when (maybe especially when) I can’t yet make any sense of it!
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Years later I became part of a spiritual movement that made sense of the childhood experience.
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I agree with you about the dreams
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I think that shamanic initiation is in part spontaneous — maybe not for everyone, but especially those who find themselves eventually tasked with writing deep words. Dreams of fire in children are oracular and whisper fates they cannot understand until the initiation.
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Yes, I studied more about it as an adult- this was one of others
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Interesting the things that traumatize us a kids! Your images are great… as a vivid bad dream!
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It was quite the bad dream, thanks.
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There’s a dream-like quality to this, almost as if it was a vision that was speaking to the person, that prepared them for the drumming circle. Is this close?
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Yes. The ‘hallucination happened at 15. The drumming circle near 30.
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Intriguing
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Thank you.
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Very strong beat/pulse to this poem–it makes me want to drum, to center in the midst of so much chaos. And the dance…ahh.
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Thanks Victoria.
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Such tension throughout with relief at the end.
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Yes…thank you.
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“release my soul to the dance.” – wonderful
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Thank you
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Intriguing bit of story here! Love the added drumming and the feeling of release.
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Thanks Jilly – fun prompt. Could have gone in many different directions.
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You add sound that makes my heart pump. I feel the urgency and desire to protect. So good V. J
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Thanks Gina.
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