Two babies, two cars, a mortgage, and depression I just couldn’t shake. What was wrong with me, I wondered. Was I missing something? Is there more to life, I’m not seeing? I prayed to the Heavens.
Six months, I dreamt of returning to my childhood home. Every time, I remarked the same changes: the blue wall-to-wall carpet was replaced with red in the living and dining rooms, and geometric patterns running up the stairs; and one wall in my sister’s old bedroom was bricked. Whereas we had a dog, the dream residents had a cat. Always, I would exit through the back door, where I would fall and jolt awake.
One day, driving past the place, I noted an Open House sign and went in. There was the red carpet, the designs on the stairs, and the bricked wall in my sister’s old room.
Shaken, I passed the cat in my haste to exit – out the front door.
Ask and be answered –
Source listened, and delivered –
a resounding “Yes!”
(Written for dVerse pub, hosted tonight by Merrill. The challenge is to write a haibun on the topic of transition. I am also linking this to my weekly challenge, where the prompt is veil. Although I did not use the term in this piece, I felt as if a veil had been lifted.)
I like the final detail of the cat brushing by you, a creature between worlds. It’s amazing how God meets us where we are and speaks to our own unique spiritual languages.
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So true. Thanks.
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powerful piece, great use of the halibun form.
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thanks!
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An amazing experience. I’m convinced we haven’t scratched the surface of what’s stored in the attic of our brains awaiting discovery! One of my favorite TV shows, based on truth, is “Psychic Detectives” in which certain individuals call upon special powers of perception in solving crimes. Thanks for sharing your experience!i
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I agree Beverly! So much we don’t understand and can’t see.
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Wow! That might make you want to deliberately avoid that neighborhood – forever!
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Ha ha ha…
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Wow… what an eerie feeling to find it exactly like that… really chilling.
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Yes, I shook for some time afterwards.
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I love this! There are so many aspects of life, isn’t there?
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There sure are – it snapped me out of depression.
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Goosebumps! Wonderfully told, V.J. — especially the ending, where you leave through the front door.
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Ha ha – there was no way I was going out the back. thanks, Heide.
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… especially knowing that the back door meant falling down, right? Though one does wonder whether you would wake up and realize that THIS life is just a dream? 🙂
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Ahhh….might have been..
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I like how the cat from the dream was there.
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Yes. Particularly significant for me because I’m allergic to cats.
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That makes it even more special.
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Spookily suited to Halloween Eve!
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I suppose it is, lol.
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I love the rawness and the hint of mystery with nostalgia. 🙂
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Thank you
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You’re welcome, Ma’am!
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What an experience to have! Several years ago we were near the town where I grew up so we rented a car and drove around. I took photos of the house I grew up in — it looks very “sad” now with its paint peeling and porch drooping. I think, at the end of the day, I wished we had not gone there. I prefered my memories rather than seeing it changed.
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It definitely puts things I a different perspective
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Oh, wow, this is wonderful. It’s strange how these things happen — it suggests that that the universe is, after all, rooting for us. A great experience well narrated here. ❤
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Thanks HA. I sure felt supported
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Sometimes what we seek is not what we find! Memories are the best and cannot be relived, but they can still give us pleasure as we see them in our mind!
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“This or something better” I always think when asking/ seeking. Sometimes we don’t know what we need
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Very true! I have found this to be the case as well.
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Wow! That is amazing! And you are satisfied! I believe God speaks through dreams. Thanks for sharing.
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I sure felt like I had been heard and answered. Thanks Mary.
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Oh I love dreams that sort of come true!! I’ve had many of those and I don’t really know why. It’s spooky isn’t it? 🙂
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the great mystery…I find it reassuring.
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Yes, makes you feel like you’re part of something bigger maybe 🙂
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i read some where that in dreams we sort out a situation and it carries in to the waking hours, and we have the clarity. thank you for sharing a difficult part of your life V.J i hope it has helped with healing. your haiku is like a victory cry!
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It was an awakening moment, for sure. Thanks Gina. Dreams are an amazing source of guidance.
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That is so uncanny – maybe you have been there before. Our dreams can tell us a lot of things about ourselves.
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Yes, they sure can. Thanks Grace.
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I wrote of a hypnagogic experience I had while ill; dream interpretation studies would be cool. Your vision/premonition/subconscious experience is fascinating too.
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I just read your story – amazing. The course I took at university was called Dreams, Visions, Meditations, and God – so interesting. The mystery is limitless.
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This sounds like a fascinating course to take! I must see if I can find something similar — either online or somewhere accessible here in Boston. Would LOVE to take a course like this!
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Such a life changing course.
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Wow, that’s kind of spooky , but it’s also fascinating V.J.! The subconscious is an amazing thing….
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It sure is…this experience led me into the study of dream interpretation, which continues today.
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Wow! A bit of a shiver here. I wonder if anyone bought the house, and how it might have changed some more?
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Don’t know – this was over thirty years ago. The house is still there, but I haven’t returned.
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That’s probably for the best. 🙂
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How amazing this subconscious of ours. It must have been a truly awesome experience for you, though I bet you were a bit shaken by it too.
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Wow! The subconscious is fascinating. Did you ever have that dream again?
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No. I never did. I think the subconscious got the message across. It opened a whole new world for me.
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Positive outcome!
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